Holding on.

I made a decision to leave my Guitar file in the Guitar room today, as it was pretty heavy and since I have night study tmr I figured I won't be having time to do much practice at home.

And I realized now I am unable to at least go through my 'You raise me up' score.

I mean its cool, after all we're learning it during sectionals on Friday. However, somehow I feel an obligation to be ahead of the ensemble. Even by just a single step.

At least by just a step.

And I doubted my own abilities, due to my sudden slowdown in the speed of learning Yesterday Once More. But I soon realized, thanks to someone, that the reason for my incompetence is because instead of concentrating on getting my section correct, I actually devoted time to learning what I want to play, instead of what I needed to play. In this case, I resorted to playing Guitar 1's melody every time I came to a part where I didn't know how to play. (I'm in Guitar 2 btw)

Yeah but at least now, having completed/memorized YOM, I'm past that stage.

Hell yeah I told you I could fucking do it, grandma!

Lol.

Anyways. Just ate half a packet of wonderful yet sinful Hokkien Mee. Now I know I should be going on a diet. But I can't help it! In fact, the reason why I did that is because I am feeling so famished, having my previous meal at 11am. I also fell asleep just now at 8am all the way till 11pm.

Therefore I woke up feeling like P. Diddy. If P. Diddy is a starving animal, that is.

So now, after that 3 hour sleep, I feel revitalized and full of energy. However its 1am now. And I have a super long day tmr, lessons all the way from morning till 6 with only a lunch break from 1-2. Not to mention I have night study.

Sigh.

Yet this can't compare shit to the complications in _________.

If only you could open up your eyes and see...

I hate this, I hate this, you're not the one I believe in

With God as my witness.