Yes, I did have a hiatus on my hand for awhile and now I'm intending to end it, albeit I do not have much time left - have to go meet my friends in about an hour or so and I kinda want to finish it by then.
In short, I want to say that my absence was not due to my lack of stuff to talk about or any tight schedule that a post A level student would somehow possess. In fact, I had plenty of time (a good whole month in fact) so I guess the main reason will be that I was lazy.
Anyhow, let's back all the way up from where I left off with my last post in 2010, when A levels was around the corner. Since it'll be a recap of a 1 whole month's activities, it's gonna be fucking long. To be a little reader friendly, I shall split it up in parts, with the first being about A levels, followed by Post As and finally big events like Christmas and New Year and finally Bryan's 19th birthday which I just attended.
Now, let's get started...
The big A's:
This may actually come as a bit of a surprise. Just before my first paper - Chemistry p3, I was a nervous wreck. I did my best to hide it from people I know as I hate people worrying about me. On the outside, I was comforting my friends, telling them how prelim papers where fucked up and A levels would be a nothing short of a breeze. Yet on the inside, I know I was ill-prepared. Hell was on me and despite that, I still was unable to put in my best in the preparation. I was kinda in the 'what's more to be done' type of attitude, and the fact that first paper was a major one did not help at all.
After the first day, my fears were confirmed. I could do the paper, but I was almost completely unsure of half my answers. The entire booklet of prelim papers that I painstakingly done were useless. Past A level papers did little to assist me in the weird exam questions that involved stuff like step by step separation of a suspension of different chemicals. It was horrible.
Perhaps the only silver lining was ironically the difficulty itself, for it signified the possibility of a strong moderation. Let's just pray our friends over at the asylums like Hwa Chong and Victoria or whatever don't disrupt the bell curve by a large extent.
So there it began, and from then on it was a crazy fast ride. I actually felt pretty good for Econs, which doesn't say anything coz on multiple occasions where I had a modicum of confidence for my Econs, I still failed terribly.
Contrary to popular belief, the A level exam period wasn't so much so of a torturous wait towards the end. At least for me it was not. I was more of being troubled with papers after papers that A levels didn't seems long at all. It came soon, but it left even faster.
Besides a few anomalies, I thought it was pretty okay after I was done with it.
However, as time passed, I thought more and more about it and my fears slowly grew inside me. Creeping into my confidence and finally obliterating it. I think I can say that right now I absolutely dread results day.
But that would be in about 3 months, so let's move on for now...
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